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I need to know, I only need to know that you’ll be here when I come back home
Right now, things are right where I want them with you. I knew eventually things would turn around and they are well on their way. The timing just sucks, we don’t have time to do the things we wish we could. We don’t have the time we need to spend with each other, which is why I need to know that when we’re back here, you’ll still be here. I don’t ever want you to leave again. Life just makes more sense when you are apart of it. I was finally able to admit to myself that at one point you were all I wanted. I am not sure why I never let it happen, but I’m glad I didn’t you mean more to me as a friend than you ever would as anything else. The other thing I am not sure of is why I ever let anyone get in the way of you and me. I let my friends opinion of you influence me, and that made us grow apart. After that, I let everyone tell me I would eventually be okay and better without you in my life. I listened to endless conversations of people telling me not to talk to you that you were no good for me. People that are supposed to be helping me find happiness, were doing nothing but preventing me from finding the happiness I had with you again. I will never understand why I let people who never listen to my advice stand in the way of us. I realized one night, that it was time to stand up for myself, stop taking the advice from people who were making the same “mistake” they told me I would be making. So I did it, I apologized for everything. I let you know you hurt me, but I know that I hurt you to. I know things will never be the same. I can never fully forgive you for the things you did and said to me, and you can never fully forgive me. You are still one of the best things to ever happen to me, you are the reason why I know what true friendship and happiness is. You were there for me through everything, and no words in the world could ever thank you enough for what you did for me. I know we haven’t always been the best for each other, but I promise you to continue to trying, and I hope you will too. I truly believe in the saying that everything happens for a reason. I know you were put in my life for a reason, and I know that everything we have been through is for a reason. The good and the bad has taught me lessons in life I will never forget. I guess all thats left to say is thank you. Thank you for putting up with me, thank you for being you, and thank you for giving me a second chance I sure as hell don’t deserve. My life is better because you are my friend, and that is something that no one can ever change, and I promise never to let anyone get in our way again. I love you like only a best friend could, and I sure as hell hope you are in my life for the rest of it, cause I have no idea what I would ever do without you<3
